How Long is Your Curve?

I never fail to amaze myself at how many times I have to learn the same lesson time and again. I mean, come on, I'm a bonafide MAN, 31 years old, married with children, lifetime Christian, ordained minister, yada, yada, yada...

But if I'm honest, I gots me some issues!

When crunch time comes, I'm way too quick to worry and way too slow to trust in God, thrown into a frantic whirlwind of exhausting thought and random action, none of which proves to be fruitful or helpful. Then lo and behold, something comes out of left field and fills the need that I've been wearing myself out trying to figure out all along. And if I'm honest, I'm both thankful for God's provision yet intensely frustrated that I wasn't the ONE to make it happen!!

Then I realize--I've been here before. I've learned this lesson at another place and time, but somehow temporarily forgot the faithfulness and limitless creativity of God. Then I remember where Jesus said to "seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Simply put, my learning curve's way too long. Once again, I've had to learn to swallow my pride, follow His leading, and rest in the fact that He knows exactly what my needs are, and it's not in His nature to up and leave me...ever!

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" (John 6:25-27)